Mira's pov

"Eat something, you want to die this young?"

Shalu tried to feed me but i didn't open my mouth.

Mala was rubbing ice on my forehead.

"Tell Bakuli tai that we need a doctor....she will die in pain"- Mala said to Shalu.

"Bakuli tai will beat her more...already she is mad at her"- Shalu replied.

"She also beats us on our initial days but now she is crossing her limits with her....if Bakuli tai kept on beating her like this, she will die soon"- Mala said by grabbing my chin.

I stared at the ceiling.

It's better to die. I will die with my dignity, i will fight for my dignity till my last breathe.

One month has passed. I didn't let anyone touch a single strand of my hair.

Yes, they attempted rape on me multiple times but i fought with every ounce of strength within me.

And after every failed attempt, Bakuli tai beats the hell out of me. Now I'm adjusting to this pain slowly. I have multiple scars on my back due to her beating.

She just didn't burn me, because she doesn't want my beauty to fed, that's why she beats me with shoes, with bare hands and also with sticks.

"Girl, why are you so stubborn? Your husband sold you to us....that's your fate...."

"He is not my husband..."- i yelled at Mala.

She stared at me in shock because i spoke after a long time. These days i have learnt to endure pain biting my lips. I endured everything silently. I never knew that a girl like me can endure such kind of tortures.

I still remember the way i show tantrums to my mom and dad.

Silent tears rolled down to my cheeks when i thought about them.

Where are they?

May be they are thinking that i left with Atharv to marry him. That's why they are hating me probably.

Actually what i did i deserve only hate.

Life has taught me so many things in this one month.

I learned that noone can get away from his Karma. Sooner or later it will bite you back.

Whenever Bakuli tai beats me, and i fell into the bed in my half concious state, i remember those days when i stabbed Anurag day and night with my hatefull words.

I remember those days when i showed so arrogance infront of him, when i showed him his class, when i was so proud of my education and insulted him for being less educated than me.

I was living in a world of pride and arrogance.

But i never knew that someone is watching us from heaven and noting down our every actions. Sooner or later he will give us back everything.

I'm getting back everything.

I deserve this.

I have no remorse. I have no complaint.

I broke the heart of someone who loves me beyond anything. I broke a good person's heart.

When my granma was alive, she used to tell me that whenever we give pain to someone whose heart is pure, god cried himself for that person.

And i not only broke his heart but i gave him the biggest shock of his life. He will probably hate me forever for my deeds.

And i deserve every bit of that hate.

I don't know where is he, how is he dealing with the allegations i have put on him. I'm just praying to god day and night to save him from his misery and transfer his all pain to me.

I'm ready to endure every punishment. I'm ready to bear the results of my hideous act.

I just want him to be saved by some angel.

He always considered me as his angel but i was not. I was the black dot of Anurag's life.

I always thought that i deserve someone better than Anurag but the truth was Anurag deserves someone better than me.

He is the man with the purest heart.

And i was the girl with a black heart.

My parents will be ashamed of me.

So, i deserve this life.

But i won't let anyone touch me like that. I deserve hate but i don't deserve this life. I will escape this place and go back to my parents.

"Listen, we know that this hurts, but believe me, soon it will subside...we all suffered in the beginning but now look at us, we are happy with this life"- Mala said to me.

I didn't reply.

How will i make them understand that only Anurag has the right to touch me. If anyone ever get to touch me, it will be my husband.

"Bakuli tai will never stop.....infact she will plan to send two men at a time...will you able to fight then?"- Mala said to me.

I held the locket tightly that Anurag has bind around my wrist.

I have developed a kind of faith on this locket. It's the only thing that is giving me hope. I won't succumb myself in this darkness. I will fight.

Mala and Shalu left the room being defeated.

I closed my eyes and fell into the bed.

Another month went just like that.

She beats me day and night because I'm not ready to surrender.

She has beaten me so much one night they send me to the hospital. I was in my half conscious state but still my senses are alive. I felt that they are taking me out, so this could be the best opportunity for me to run.

I know Bakuli tai has send her men with us but still i have to try to escape from her clutch.

I have become only a piece of skeleton in this one month. So much beatings and tortures has made me look like a ghost. I'm even scared to see the mirror.

But whenever i took bath, i can see my thin legs. I have lost so much weight i guess.

The doctor was treating me. Bakuli tai's men were still outside the room. This hospital is only made for prostitutes. It's even inside the red light area.

I fell into deep slumber soon.

I woke up with a whisper.

"Mira...I'm...sorry...oh...god...what you....have become...."

I opened my eyses slightly. Someone is crying holding my hand.

I rubbed my eyes a little and then i saw the person.

Shakshi!!

"Shakshi......"- i cried out silently.

I was shocked to see her here. At the same time i got so many hopes.

"Mira....how you ended up like this?"- she is whispering and crying so much.

"Atharv sold me....."- i cried by holding her hands.

She hugged me tightly. We both cried silently.

Suddenly i felt something and immediately i jerked back.

I stared at Sakshi in extreme shock. She lowered her eyes and broke out in crying.

I can see a huge baby bump on her.

"My life has been ruined Mira.....he took my advantage and then left me like this,,,, my parents doesn't know this....they will die in shame if they get to know about this....that's why i came here for abortion.....but doctor's said that it will be risky because the baby is growing up....."

So much thing to process for me right now. I just kept staring at her blankly.

"That's why i chose to come here....this hospital is far away from our place....i don't want anyone to know about this...and I'm sorry Mira.....please forgive me"

"Why are you telling me sorry?"- i asked being confused.

She stayed silent for sometime. Then she cried out violently.

"I have put your name everywhere in my pregnancy related reports because you were married...so noone will blame you but I'm unmarried....and pregnant girl without marriage is a disdain to our society...I'm so sorry...."

I held my head in pain.

That's why 2 months back Anurag told me that someone called on my phone from a clinic and asked about pregnancy test.

"I even dropped your address and they delivered the report at your house"- She said the rest.

I smiled in pain this time.

"Anurag never touched me Shakshi"- i said with a blank smile.

"What!!!"- she was extremely shocked.

This means Anurag is also thinking that i have not only framed him but also I'm pregnant with someone else's baby.

I deserve this right?

"Where is Anurag?"- I asked Shakshi finally.

"I don't know....I'm staying here for few months because of this baby bump"- she said.

"I will just get rid of this child and go back to my old life"- she said.

"But it will be risky"- i said to her.

"I will not go for abortion....its not possible right now...i will deliver the baby and dump it somewhere...already doctor told me that the baby will be an abnormal kid....he will have some genetic disorder"- she said.

I don't know why but my heart ached all of a sudden. She is planning to dump an innocent soul only because of it's abnormality.

I placed my hand on her tummy and i won't deny that i felt goosebumps. I don't know what is it but i felt something so warm.

"Don't do this please..."- i said to her.

Shakshi stared at me in shock.

"What are you saying Mira?? This baby will only bring disdain to my life...i don't want to live in shame and embarrassment......"

We both stayed silent for sometime. Then she again continued.

"I know you have no go back....i don't think anyone will accept you after this...."

I stared at her in shock.

"I didn't let anyone touch me"- i said painfully.

"Who will believe you?? You left with Atharv that is enough to bring shame on your name....everyone is gossiping about you...mom told me last night that people are taking your name hatefully......your parents are planning to sell their house and leave the city forever because they can't show their face to the neighbours..."

I was frozen after hearing her.

I felt that this is the biggest pain till now. I always thought to make them proud but this is what i brought into them.

"That's why I'm telling you that you have no way to go back but i have that chance, so why not take that chance....this baby will only bring pain in my life...."

I closed my eyes and lay down.

I understood that Shakshi is also not ready to accept me because according to her I'm a whore now. She doesn't believe that I'm still pure.

She doesn't want me near her because she knows that people will not look at her in a good way if she takes me with her. Afterall she has still a future ahead, while i haven't.

My only best friend also left me like this.

I deserve this.

She was about to walk away but i stopped her.

"Can you give me your baby?"

She stared at me in shock.

"I will raise him....i know i have no way back......I'm a whore now according to the society....but still i have some hopes inside me to live this life.....i want to see what is waiting for me at the end.....i want to suffer all my sins....so that one day god will show his mercy on me"

Shakshi stared at me silently.

"But promise me one thing...that if any day our paths will cross, you will not tell anyone that this baby is mine"- Shakshi said to me.

"I won't tell anyone....everyone will know that the baby is mine"- i nodded.

Shakshi smil

ed this time.

"I hope one day you will find peace"- she walked away from the room.

Bakuli tai's men entered the room and took me with them.

I again entered that dark place but this time with a new hope.

I will escape soon.