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No More Hesitation

Advay's pov

I walked inside her cabin. I have shifted her to a special cabin. I have strictly instructed the doctors to empty the other cabins. I want everything neat and clean near my sweetheart.

I found her sleeping deeply. I walked closer. I'm seeing her after 3 days. That night when I brought her here, I was not in my senses. I was scared beyond anything. My inside was screaming in pain. I forgot about everything at that moment. I thought this was the end of my life.

But when I got the news of her recovery, i felt like I have born again. This is another life. I finally got a chance to start afresh. A new life is waiting for me and i won't waste it.

I pulled the chair near her bed and took my position. My eyes were deeply rooted on her face. A deep bandage was surrounding her neck. Her arms are also wrapped in bandage.

I clenched my jaw. I'm going to kill that person who hurt her like this. My heart ached after imagining the amount of pain she felt when she was bleeding. I wish I have reached her before.

I started caressing her head gently. Her hair is looking all messy. I want to comb her hair softly. My fingers ran through her locks. I bent and kissed the side of her forehead.

My sweetheart....

I breathed on her face. I rubbed my nose on her face and inhaled her deeply.

I will die without her. I wrapped my arms around her shoulder and buried my head beside her. I was looking at her intently. So many emotions swirled inside me. I felt deep affection for her. So deep that I felt like carrying her in my lap and hide her inside my soul.

Suddenly she moved. She is waking up I guess. I lifted up my head and found her slowly opening her eyes. She is blinking and then she properly looked at me. Her eyes widened and I saw fear.

"Nooo.....i.. don't want to die... don't kill me... don't....."

She cried out in too much fear. I immediately understood that she is having panic attacks.

"Sshsh.. it's okay... sweetheart..look at me..you are safe...you are safe"

I started caressing her face gently. She is still looking at me fearfully. She slowly closed her eyes again and again she fell asleep.

I called the doctor to check on her. The doctor told me that it's normal to have such attacks after a near death experience. Also still i don't know nothing about that incidence. I don't know how she landed in such a situation.

That little girl Kavya and her mother Archana were rescued. I heard that Archana is under intensive care. Police came to meet her but she is not in a state to talk. Probably her husband is responsible for all these. Two dead bodies were found from their house.

I came out of the hospital. I have an important meeting to attend. I will attend it here online. I'm just going home to take a long shower. My muscles are aching so much. Also I want to look fresh and clean in front of my sweetheart.

I went towards my car and immediately someone came in front of me.

Jaivanth Dixit.

"Let me see my ruru once... I'm begging you"

He is standing by joining his hands. His eyes are looking puffy. He is looking totally devastated and I felt happy after seeing his state. I want him to suffer more.

My father used to look like this before taking his own life. Just like this he used to roam aimlessly everywhere. He had lost his interest in living.

"Please Advay...Just once..I will leave immediately...just let me see her once"

"You are looking dirty..and i don't want any dirt around her"

I said.

Suddenly my mother India appeared from somewhere. Oh i should have known that this pair of Laila majnu never stay away from each other.

"You can't talk to him like this..let him meet Roohi"

My mother said.

I chuckled.

"Then go.. I'm not stopping anyone"

"But your men are not allowing us...Listen Advay, Roohi won't like this...when she will find out that you are not allowing us inside..she will get angry on you..."

She said.

I smiled broadly looking at her.

"Don't worry about me...Worry about your crippled lover"

Jaivanth Dixit's eyes widened and my mother almost raised her hand to slap me but my smile didn't fade.

"What's wrong with you Advay??????"

She yelled.

"Everything is wrong with me and..."

I took steps near her.

"STAY AWAY FROM MY WIFE"

I said looking into her eyes.

Then I got in my car and drove off.

....................,...........

After taking a long shower, I started selecting my clothes. What should I wear? What will look good on me?

Black?

I look good in black, i know that but what is her favorite colour? What she will like on me? I got totally confused. I decided to call Sharad.

He came after a while. I showed him my wardrobe.

"Sir, how can I? I mean....you look good on everything... whatever you will wear you look perfect..."

"You are confusing me more Sharad... Should I wear black or blue?"

I asked.

"I think you should wear white"

"White??? Are you kidding me? I want to look good, i don't want to look pathetic"

Calling him here for an advise was a bad idea.

"Sir.. actually..white is very soothing colour you know...you look intimidating in black....I think white colour is very warming and...and..mam will like it"

I immediately turned my face away.

"Who told you I'm wearing this for her? I have a meeting to attend, that's why I want to look good"

I said.

"Okay sir"

Sharad finally left but i saw him smiling.

..........................

I make my way inside her cabin. She is looking out of the window while the nurse was checking her BP.

I cleared my throat and immediately her gaze shifted on me.

"How long I have to stay here?"

She asked immediately.

A smile covered my lips. I'm finally hearing her sweet voice.

The nurse left after giving her medicine. I pulled the chair and took my position near her bed. Her face is looking pale. She has lost so much blood.

"How are you feeling today?"

I asked.

"I'm fine..how did you find me? I thought I'm going to die....where is Kavya? Is she fine? And Archana? Did you find her?"

I kept on looking at her in a daze. She is looking so beautiful. It felt like she has turned more attractive within these few days.

"Advay...are you listening?

She placed her hand on my wrist. My trance broke and immediately got up and sat on her bed.

She got tensed after seeing me so close. She didn't expect me to sit that much closer to her.

"Advay....are you...okay..?"

I didn't let her finish. I cupped her cheek from one side and my lips came on her other cheek. I kissed her cheek deeply. Instantly her breathing turned high. Again I shifted my lips on her other cheek and kissed with the same intensity.

This felt like heaven. This is the first time my lips are touching her skin. Her soft skin melted under my needy lips. My heart danced in joy. The affection i felt for her is limitless. I can't describe how amazing it felt to kiss her.

I pulled back and looked deeper into her eyes.

She is all flushed and shocked. Her lips are parted and she is looking at me being extremely puzzled.

I caressed her crimson face with the back my knuckle. She is such a sweetheart.

"I will find you anywhere"

I whispered.

She lowered her gaze. She is now fidgeting her fingers. Her face is looking like a tomato right now.

We stayed like that for some moment. I know she needs time to process all these. Let her process.

"I have an online meeting to attend..."

She didn't say anything.

My meeting started and i got busy. She lay down but i don't know whether she is sleeping or not because she was facing the window. It's extremely hard to concentrate when she is just a few hands away from me. I want to talk to her about so many things. I want to take care of her. My hands are craving to touch her. It's really impossible to focus on the work.

If i had fallen for her before, I would have never turned into a billionaire because it's really getting hard for me to concentrate on anything.

I shut down my laptop and walked towards her bed. She has fallen asleep. The nurse entered with the lunch and i motioned her to place the tray and leave.

I sat on the bed and looked at her face. What is this urge to look at her constantly like this? Believe me, I can do it for an eternity without any tiredness. I can never ever get bored of her face. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.

"Sweetheart..."

I called her softly. She opened her eyes tiredly.

"You have to eat something sweetheart"

I caressed her forehead.

"Advay... I'm feeling so weak"

My heart ached after hearing this. I slowly encircled my arms around her petite frame and helped her to get up. Her head dropped in my shoulder.

"You will be fine sweetheart...it's the effect of the medicines"

I caressed her back gently. She lifted up her head. Her eyes are still so sleepy.

"I want to use the washroom"

I immediately carried her in my arms and walked inside the washroom. She didn't protest. Then I came out and called the nurse. I know she won't be comfortable with me and I don't want to make her uncomfortable.

Finally she came out. I again carried her in my arms and placed her on the bed. She has lost weight I guess. She is weighing like a feather.

Her hair got open and fell all over her frame. She tried to remove her hair off her face. She is looking irritated. I sat beside her and set her hair properly in her back.

"Do you have a hair band or something?"

She showed me the table. There was a scrunchie. I put it around her ponytail. This is the first time in my life, I'm doing something like this and I'm loving it.

I finally took the bowl and sat in front of her. I make her drink the whole soup bit by bit. She obliged like a cute obedient baby. But not for once she met my eyes. What is actually going in her mind? I wish I could know this.

Finally after dinner, she fell asleep. I pulled the duvet on her and came out. I talked to the doctor and then I headed towards my penthouse. I will come back in the evening.

............................

After returning in my penthouse I found Robin's cousin Snehal. I didn't expect her like this.

"Advay, actually i have something to tell you..."

"Yes"

"I think Roohi has appointed a detective for her Baba's case...Two days back a man came and did a thorough search in my house, also in my absence.. Being a doctor, i felt violated...The case is very clear, then why she is trying to manipulate the scenario? Her Baba did this crime, then why she is trying to mould the case??? I'm sure you have no idea about all these..."

I looked at her coldly. I know she is talking about detective Anil whom I have appointed.

"I will see what I can do..now go home"

I don't want to drag any conversation with her right now. I don't want anyone to get suspicious. I want the real culprit to come out. I was about to walk away but she instantly held my wrist.

"Advay...I don't think you should trust Roohi"

That is limit of my patience. I immediately jerked her hand off.

"What's wrong with you? Who the hell are you to lecture me like this??? Get lost"

Her eyes widened in shock and she looked at me being terrified.

"I was...just.. I'm your friend"

"Get lost"

I walked upstairs. I know this girl very well. She is attracted towards me. Her eyes were telling everything. Fucking I hate this!!! I don't want any other woman to have any kind of feelings for me. Thinking about this, giving me utter disgust. I only belong to my sweetheart. From top to bottom. And these fucking women are literally lusting over me.

Previously i used to feel proud whenever any women looked at me like this but not anymore. I feel pure disgust. Only my sweetheart has the right to look at me like this.

My mood was totally spoiled. I decided to take another shower just to remove the touch of Snehal off me. I won't go infront of my sweetheart bearing another woman's touch.

........................

Roohi's pov

I'm turning and tossing into the bed continuously. Those eyes were literally terrible. They are still haunting me. The thing I saw in those eyes were so familiar. It felt like I have seen those madness in someone's eyes but i can't really connect.

Where is Archana and Kavya? I asked the doctors again and again. They just told me that they are fine. I want to meet Archana so badly. I want to hug her and give her comfort. I can't believe that she has spent so many years of her like with a monster. I don't know what I would have done if I was at her place.

He was really so scary. Still his eyes are giving me chills. I have heard about psycho obsessed lovers. Once Siya told me about a story where a man did horrible things for a woman. He was just obsessed. He pretended in front of her that he is good but deep down his intentions were dark.

I got scared. Suddenly Advay entered and true to say i got relieved after seeing him. I got so much comfort.

"What happened? Why are you looking so pale?"

He read my fear. He immediately sat on the bed and caressed my face. My face again heated up. He is doing this a lot. He is continuously touching me since morning and I'm not feeling bad.

In fact I'm liking whenever he is showing this concern for me. And this thought is making me shy extremely.

Apart from my baba, I'm seeing this concern in another man's eyes. I have never seen this concern in Kunal's eyes before.

Whenever I got sick, Kunal also took care of me but Advay's care is on another level. I can't describe the way he is pampering me since morning. I'm feeling like a spoilt kid from inside and I'm actually enjoying this pampering a lot. I'm feeling special. For the first time in my entire life.

That's why I'm getting shy again and again.

"I'm okay"

I said hesitantly.

"Did you sleep well?"

He asked.

I nodded my head. He got down and walked near the window. He opened the window and the soothing evening air fell inside the cabin.

"You want to sit here?"

"Okay"

I mumbled.

My stomach is continuously flipping. With his proximity strange things are happening inside me. When he kissed my cheeks in the morning, i felt goosebumps all over me. My breathing turned heavy and my heart started hammering.

When I was unconscious, I felt him crying a lot. I felt that he was sobbing hard. I don't know whether I saw a dream or he was literally crying like that. I really don't know. I have to ask Sharad.

He held me carefully and lifted me up near his chest. My hands got wrapped around his neck. This is the third time in a single day, he is lifting me up.

He placed me on the chair near the window. He pulled another chair and sat beside me.

I felt so shy in his proximity. I got mesmerized by his cologne. He is wearing a black jacket and blue jeans. I found him attractive.

I bite my lips to hide my embarrassment. Why am I even thinking like this?

And the most awkward part is we are absolutely silent. I'm not finding anything to talk, while he is also behaving the same. I know we both are feeling this awkward silence between us.

I have to initiate a conversation. It's getting too much uncomfortable but what should I talk right now? Should I talk about his meeting? Hmm that will be fine.

"How was your meeting?"

I asked.

"Hmm?"

Hey shivji!!! He was lost in some thoughts. What was he thinking?

"Umm..I asked about your meeting"

I repeated.

"Oh...it was good..I got the deal"

He said.

"Congratulations"

I mumbled.

"Thank you"

End of the conversation!!

We again went silent and my embarrassment increased every second. Why am I feeling like this? It's feeling like I'm forcefully hiding something from him and he is aware of all these.

"It's...."

I stopped. I closed my eyes.

"You want to say something?"

He asked me.

"No..nothing...do you have anything to say to me?"

I asked looking at him. And our eyes got connected.

My heart sped up. My whole face started throbbing hard and again my stomach went light.

I'm now confirmed that he knows what is going inside me and he caught me red handed.

"I..need..some sleep"

I said while looking away.

"No you don't"

He said. He got up and came in front of me. I was sitting in my chair and looking at him in a daze.

"We both need to talk sweetheart...We have to"

I averted my gaze but he immediately held my chin.

"Look at me"

His voice is dominating.

"Advay... don't..."

I tried to remove his hand but he didn't move his fingers. I slowly looked at him. He knelt down. His gaze was fixed on me.

I read his eyes clearly. I know what he wants. Nothing is hidden anymore. We communicated through eyes. I also failed to take my eyes off his face. It felt like I'm under a spell.

"Do you love me?"

His question was so straightforward. I was tensed.

"I have no answer..."

I moved my face away but he again held my chin and make me face him.

"I'm not forcing you for a reply....I want you to give me a fair chance...I want you to see me as your husband"

I don't know what to say. My heart is really beating so fast right now. A few months back I was asking for a fair opportunity from him to prove my Baba innocence and now he is asking for the same thing but his purpose is different.

In both these context, my life is under questionable circumstances.

"I'm scared"

I said. Tears were forming into my eyes.

"Why??"

He is already wiping my tears so gently.

"You did so many bad things to me... You will hurt me and my Baba again"

I finally said it.

"No I won't...How can I make you believe this?"

He cupped my face and pulled me closer.

"I don't know..but....I.. don't trust you...."

His face went pale. He moved back. He started pacing around while silent tears made their ways on my cheeks.

Finally he came near me. He again knelt down. He held my hands and looked deeply into my eyes.

"I'm begging you sweetheart..Give me a chance..I won't disappoint you ever...I want to lead a happy life...and my happiness is only you...I don't want to do any revenge..I want to end this bullshit... enough of all these chaos..I want a family...I want my wife..I want to be a loving and caring husband...I have wasted my life in hate...not anymore..please give me a chance...please sweetheart....please"

My heart ached violently. I have never seen him like this before. He is looking so vulnerable.

"But...you hate my Baba...."

For a second his expression changed into something but then he again looked into my eyes.

"I don't hate him anymore..."

My eyes widened in shock.

"Do you want to see something? Wait..."

He took out his phone and opened a document. He passed me his phone.

"I'm taking all the charges back...your Baba is now free"

I couldn't believe my own ears. I kept on looking at him being dumbfounded.

"Yes..it's true..look..."

I looked at the legal document. Tears of happiness gathered into my eyes. It was a huge burden till now. How many nights I spent sleepless only because of this case. I couldn't believe that he really removed the charges like this.

"Advay...you..is it true??"

I asked with a smile.

"Yes.. absolutely..I don't hate him anymore.."

He has no idea how much burden he is removing off my chest.

I smiled again and again. I wiped my tears.

"They will discharge you tomorrow"

He said while gently caressing my face. Suddenly something came into my mind.

"Advay, Did anyone inform my Baba about me?"

He didn't reply. He lifted me up in his arms and walked towards the bed. He placed me on the bed.

"No..he doesn't know"

I immediately took a sigh of relief.

"Thank God. Otherwise he got tensed...thanks Advay for not telling him anything"

He rubbed my forehead silently.

"Now sleep....I will stay here tonight... don't hesitate to wake me up if you need anything"

He turned to leave but i caught his wrist. He immediately looked at me.

"I..I...."

My face is throbbing hard. I can't say this. I wanted to say that I'm ready to give him a chance but shyness covered me.

He immediately bent and kissed my cheek just like the way he did in the morning.

"I love you"

He whispered in my ear. My face flushed and i felt butterflies in my stomach. He is so close. His beard is making contact with my cheek.

I closed my eyes instantly. He pulled the duvet on me and then he walked towards the sofa.

I opened my eyes and looked at him. Suddenly i realised that this feeling is something new which I have never encountered before. Not even with Kunal.

This is so deep and passionate. Even my soul is throbbing intently with this feeling. It's amazing. I never knew that this kind of emotion even exists. But now I know.

I closed my eyes.

I'm ready for this new beginning.

Now I have no remorse. He is ready to let go his hate for my Baba. He is not a threat anymore to my Baba.

And I have no more hesitation. I'm ready to accept him as my husband.

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